1592 g love

Hi everyone! How's life with you? :-) Me and my darling boys are doing well, Elliot keeps growing - yesterday the scale showed 1592 grams ♥ We will weigh him again tomorrow (every other day) and I'm sure he will have exeeded 1600 grams :-) Right now he's in his bed here beside us and I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. Until now I've heard and understood a parents love for their child(ren), but I've just recently KNOWN what it means, and OMG does it overwhelm you..! He is so gorgeous, beautiful and lovely I could just stare at him all day, holding his hands or feet or touching his warm soft head, I wouldn't do anything else at all.

The room we're in now is a little bigger which is awesome, the first one we had was the size of a shoe box really. Living together like this, the three of us, is amazing - we can hear and look at him all the time ♥

Another great thing about this room is that it is a lot easier having visitors - we meet with the welfare officer every week, and also family and friends visiting (and all the nurses and doctors walking in and out). Caroline came here on Saturday, and then Dans sister and brother-in-law visited Sunday. Today it's Monday (I have to double check every day what day it is - that bit is kinda blurry in here, it's like we live in a parallell universe...) and we had lunch with Mimmi and Stefan at Kolgrillen.

A good day.

Wow

WOW indeed! And not as in "ways of working" or "world of warcraft", but WOW as in we've had an incredible day!

We started yesterday afternoon with removing Elliots CPAP (Continuous Positive Airway Pressure) which uses mild air pressure to keep the airways open - the doctors had decided we should give it a try. 24 hours later he's still doing awesome. Today we then decided to give him his second bath ever, and when done the doctors decide not to put the electrons back on at all, but to just keep the saturation one. 

This is where I get the OH-SHIT-WHAT'S-BLOODY-HAPPENING-HERE feeling, I really have had no time to prepare for not being able to see the monitor (FYI, the monitor becomes the almighty in here, who keeps track of your little baby and how he/she is doing with monitoring heartbeats, breathing and saturation. The monitor has been our best friend for five weeks now and you do NOT want to lose this happy little helper. However, as a parent you kinda HAVE to, as you will need to look at your baby instead of the monitor. INCREDIBLY scary).


Anywho, what feels like five minutes later (in truth closer to ten... or perhaps 30), Susana comes back to the room where Elliot and his three baby friends stay, telling Dan (I had a date with the horrible tittie machine) that since Elliot is doing so great we can move to "the growth corridor" tomorrow..! The growth corridor" really is what the name suggests; this is where babies move to when they're stable enough to leave the emergency room, and get to live with their parents. We have a little boy! We really thought this would be another two weeks, but it looks like Elliot is taking the lead now deciding what happens next!

In the evening we went to my mum to celebrate her 59th birthday so we got to end this wonderful day with some yummy cake and coffee - coult id be any better? :-)


Soooo... as you can see, we've had a WOW day :-)

Elliot

Things don't always turn out the way you plan (or hope). My water broke on May 5 so we went to the hospital. After examining me the doctor tells me I wont be going home until the baby is out, meaning I'd be glued to a bed there at the hospital (my own version of Greys Anatomy...yaay), trying to delay it for as long as possible. We all agree that atleast 4 weeks should do so we "settle" on that and start preparing mentally for this new life of ours.

As it turns out he is very anxious to get out (could he really be much different considering the patience level of his parents?) so on the morning on May 7 the labour pains started for real and at 10.27 Daniel and I had become parents to a beautiful little boy.

I was sent for op as the placenta was stuck so Daniel stayed with Elliot and the team of doctors and nurses and toasted in cider, and when I woke up I was wheeled down (still in bed) to look at our little miracle Elliot. Unfortunately I can't remember much from this but we do have photo proof :-) We went to see him again later that evening but I was still kind of dizzy so I had to lie down again after a while. I couldn't believe we had actually become parents ALREADY? No more big belly? No more kicking me on the side, trying to break out the wrong end? No more walking slowly due to aching hips? No more feeling him move inside my belly and making me smile and feel all warm and fuzzy? Incredibly confusing! Combined with the longing to get my belly back and feeling awful for not being able to hold him in there for as long as I should have, I'm happy happy HAPPY that we FINALLY have a child to complete our little family and fill the hole in our hearts.

We've been here for more than a month now; the room we live in is no bigger than a shoe box, but that's not important really so long we live close to Elliot. He's in a room next to ours together with three other babies needing the extra supervision and care. I will not bore you with all the equipment details, but I CAN say that he's doing really well and he's strong and healthy :-) We will probably move out from this room and into a bigger in a week or two, where we can all live together and start feeling like a real family. That also means that we will be able to go for walks soon - awesome!

I hope you are all well - I feel kinda disconnected from the world outside this hospital.

Lots of love,
L

the right hand of Elliot